I really want to be close to god but I've done sick things and I'm only 14 !!!?

I really want to be religious again and I"m 14 but I've done bad thing mostly watch allot of porn, some gay but only to experiment, and I;m addicted to chat rooms where if masturbated for people online and I;m really ashamed i was thinking to go to the parish priest and confess but I'm afraid he'll recognize me and tell my parents and they;ll find out what I've done and hate me for it or he'll think I'm sick and wont forgive me and the more i do these thing i feel i feel like im developing more sick sexual desire please help !!